::Having a bigger brother is heaps cool.

Having a bigger brother that shares your pc and internet connection may be a little not so cool.

Having a bigger brother that hogs the pc the whole day... not cool at all

Having a bigger brother that wants to use the com everynight, allowing me only a few mins online... I consider that a sin

Oh God, hear my cry, i want a smaller brother...
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.:I blogged on 10:13 PM:.
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::I promised someone i will write about what she said and so here it is

"What are guys, i don't need guys"

If only that was true. If only love was something you can switch off anytime you want. But here's the news flash! You can't. (zoolander style) To tell yourself that you do not "need" a guy is to live in self denial. To tell yourself that you hate the guy that you think about everyday is a... lie.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say that you should get yourself involved in a relationship! All i'm saying is that you should not shun your feelings for that particuliar person. But instead, learn how to cultivate that feeling. Yes, you like that particular person, but are you ready to say "I do". Do you really love that person that you are willing to grow old with him/her?

"YES I AM! I REALLY THINK SO!"

If so, then what's waiting a few more years being friends with that person? After all, you are going to spend the rest of your life with him/her

"BUT I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I NEED TO BE WITH HIM OR HER!"

Uh huh! Think about it. Uncle Jacob did tell us not to waste our youth. His exact words were to PROTECT our youth. Believe it or not, there are many things that we have yet to learn. Many years that we have yet to live out. Won't it be a waste if we spend so much time trying to get into a relationship with someone? Harshly, won't we be neglecting God's work?

"But God has got a wry sense of humour!"

But God sees the bigger picture. Can you say that a mountain is beautiful when all you see is the feet of it? Can you say that a movie is good when you only saw the first 5 minutes of it? Let's talk a little about metamorphosis.

"Look at that digusting worm!"

A few days later

"What the heck is that?"

A few more days later

"Wow, a butterfly!"

What are you talking about Dixon? I'm saying that good things will come to those who wait. A sword is made from steel made from ore. God sees the finished product. All we see is the process to that finish product.

"I don't believe in God"

Maybe you should. Go figure. One should never judge unless one knows what he is judging.

I think i'm done. ^^ Now you guys can bombard me with critisms!

Bring it on::

.:I blogged on 8:00 PM:.
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::Devon reminds me of bitches and whores...

Not that he's one but he knows a few well enough to righteously judge them. Or does he? He says he does...

Anyway, i woke up today finding myself living in the ice age. Everything was cold. My room temperature, my bath water (with the heater turned to the highest) and my glass of water which i took from the fridge. Freezing...

But now, things are better. I see water dropets forming on my glass of freezing water. They call that condensation. I call it "water droplets forming on my glass of freezing water". Soon the heat will take over, dictate and rule the next half of the day. I now sit naked in front of my computer, waiting for the heat to become unbearable.

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I ask myself a question everyday. "What can i do today?" And i get the same answer everyday. "I don't know". This must change. I need to come up with a plan. Get my self introduced to busyiness(some people call it business). I need to open my social circle. It's been too small and only now i realise that it has become like a dormant volcano, latent but capable of becoming of being activated...

Don't get me wrong sally, i'm not trying to save the girls this time. I'm trying to save me. But if you're still pissed off, i suggest you go grab some food.

And dev, i'm sure there's gold in the heart of bitches. Lets give them a better name. Something like, Pray... Haha!::

.:I blogged on 10:45 AM:.

:: I've got a new plan
Just you wait

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Tonight's not a good night. Bad news and bad luck... Not a good night.

1 am... I'm feeling a little delirious. I'm broke and broken. One to do with money and the other with my emotions. They say that the best musicians are those with the weirdest mood swings. I guess that makes me one too. I was happy not too long ago but now i'm sad. Excited not too long ago but now i'm lethargic. I reckon i need sleep but sleep is just a waste of another day. Yet without sleep, one cannot live... Isn't this all too confusing?

I'm inspired to write a song now, but the silence(of the night) isn't really helping much. To hit a note now is to wake even the dead that is buried a few meters into the earth... Won't be a nice sight. Or neighbours with cleavers that will cut into me a few meters... not a nice sight at all. So what then should i do? Wait till the morning and lose all inspiration? Or rock and roll! and lose my head? and wake the dead that is buried meters below ground.

My favourite friend once told me that "The power is yours!" i guess one day, i will fully grasp the meaning of that. ::

.:I blogged on 1:14 AM:.
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::Awaken by my cousins...
they want to play the game cube...
Have they ever spared a thought for me?
I'm tired but do they care?
I don't think so...

An hour can do so much
but do they care? no...
ignorant little brats
They have got no idea what's going on
but i love them sometimes,
just not this time

Alright, poem time

She's everywhere, all around me.
there is nothing else i can see.
The sky spells out her name,
like a lion that cannot be tamed
i watch the things she touch turn gold,
becoming precious to my eyes alone.

Really, this is hard... I don't think i can master the art any time soon. So girls, you've got to protect yourself for a while more. But fret not, soon i will come. Soon i will save you all.::

.:I blogged on 10:22 AM:.
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