::So the night kills another beautiful day

Time flies really fast. And happy days won't last.
What good will memory do, if what memory is is not with you
When the sun falls and the moon dominates, the time has come
to say the words that i dread the most.
Good bye to you, the one i've grown to love

I heard that poetry was the art of seduction and my poor attempt to master it isn't really helping me out to get the girls. If only i knew the art, or better, if only i was the art itself.

Why am i trying to get the girls you say? Well, to tell you frankly, i'm actually saving them from the world full of "colored wolves" (translated directly from chinese) They will do anything to get the girl. And once they've gotten what they want, only God knows what they are going to do. However, that wouldn't happen if i get all the girls first. Like the emperor of the ching dynasty, i will treat them like my concubines and feed them well. What a hero i am don't you agree.

Enough is said. Right now, i need to get down to learning the art. So excuse me, my task is too important to mess up.

P.s I hope you know when i'm joking and when i'm not. Right now, i'm not. ::

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::I had dreams today. Yes, multiple dreams. Or rather, nightmares.

My first dream.

I was filled with jealously. I have grown to love someone so much, she becomes a possession. It was a scary dream. Not comfortable...not comfortable at all. How i wish it will never come true. Love is never meant to become a possession.

My second dream.

My mum comes up to me and says, "no she's not it. She's a bad girl, known for being notorious. Bad girl." And i'm like what?! Haha, no way! But the dream was so real i woke and asked my mum whether she was talking to me. I'm glad she said no...

I had other dreams but i can't really remember what they are. All these in the time span of 16 hours. Queer...

When i meet Jesus one day, i will ask him about dreams and what they mean. Till then, i pray that i will only have sweet dreams.

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If you don't really know what i'm talking about, it's cool. Cause i don't really know too. I'm just writing this out for remembrance. ::

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::It's been a while since i last wrote something in this journal of mine. But you can't blame me. The past few weeks were packed with stuff to do!

Even now!

Anyhow, i'm back

Ill try to keep this updated (really sometimes my life isn't that exciting)

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::I feel so sick...::

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::"If you really love her, you've got to learn to let her go."

Words from a fairy godmother.

There's alot of truth in this one sentence. If really there's true love, then true love means seeing the best happen to that person you love. Is it right to say that i truely love you when nothing is sacrificed?

David said that he will not bring anything to the lord that costed him nothing. Now that's true love. There's a price to pay for love. Even God had to pay that price. He sent his son to die for our sins because he so loved the world. Which reminds me that the one person who really knows what love is, is God himself. Really, all we need to do is to depend on him fully.

"But i need something more practical! I know God is in charge and all but right now, he's not hearing me. He's probably sleeping or really busy with george bush. I need to know what i can do to this one person i really like"

To all that are going through this (yes, we're not alone... everyone is going through this) all i want to say to you now is that if you truely love that person, you've got to learn to let go for now. Rhordan said it right, that God made a promise that he will always be there. Never leave nor forsake you? sounds familiar?

"Sometimes just because we can't feel God doesn't mean that he's not there."
I only recently learnt this... in fact, only yesterday, these words pierced my heart. How silly i must have been. God must had been smiling. The angels probably were laughing their heads off. I looked at myself and smiled... haha, there's humour in heaven. Yeah, i was the joke but i wasn't angry. The picture of the angels and God laughing somehow comforted me. They are watching me.

Now that i know God is watching me, even though he's quiet, i know he's there. And because he's there for me, i know that he has got a plan in my life. And yes, if i really love her, i must learn to let her go. If she's not the one then God will bring a better one for me. I must learn to respect that decision God is making. After all, i'm the one that's going to benefit from all this. So why the fuss?

Thank you father

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